Nothing Lasts Forever

I know it's been a while since I've written last, but honestly who's reading?
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I've had a hard dose of reality hit me recently. My dearest friend, Katherine, finally admitted to me that her doctor gave her a life expectancy of maybe two years and that's only if things don't get worse or if no other issues arise. She explained to me the details in medical terms so for me to try to explain like I know what I'm talking about is pointless. I will say that I know it's a heart condition that normally only old people have and it all began postpartum. Also, due to the pituitary tumors she's not a candidate for a heart transplant. Can you say emotion overload?!

I hope that you, my future children, get to meet her. She's the proof I have that I wasn't always boring! :) The thought of her not being here saddens me. With her move to Texas, I'm already sad by the fact I don't get to see her as often as I used to.

This news all come on the heels of Joshua telling me he wants a baby. No beating around the bush; no "It's your body, It's up to you." Plainly stated, "I want a baby." He did retract the statement saying he wants a 5-years old, but he knows how the whole baby raising works. I've also been having lots of baby related dreams. So I know the time is coming soon that we will be expecting Baby Moore.

Gosh, I really want Kat and the boys to be around for all that. I don't know how she expects me to not get emotional over all of it, but she's one of my greatest friends and I want to say one of the friends I've had the longest.

With all the changes over the years from high school to now, I can honestly say one can't ever be ready for the hand life has ready to deal us. Nothing lasts forever and that's a concept I have always struggled with due to my dislike of change. But I know as soon as I'm able to hold a child of my own flesh in my arms, life will never be the same...in the best way possible