This is the New Year

2015 came so quick! Although Josh and I did absolutely nothing during the holidays, it seems as though time still went by so fast. I'm sorry for the long time lapse, but honestly, when I think of something that I could write about work gets crazy (in the absolute best way, of course)! I have two things to share in this new year that I have learned the last few months...

One: Do not act with ulterior motive.

It has been almost a year now since I left the car dealership to work for the amazing Marketing firm. I like to think of those 6 months as a learning and growing experience for me. Initially, it was an adjustment. Before, I worked with mostly females, but at the dealership, naturally, most of my co-workers were males and much older.

Through that time I managed to make a couple friends. The front desk lady, who is the sweetest lady I've ever worked beside that is straightforward and no bullshit. One salesman, who I tended to conversate with more due to being closer in age and we're both nerds. And an older salesman, probably around my mom's age, who was really good at giving advice on life and in the trade, even though he only started 2 months before me. (I was going to name names, then realized the nature of this story may be embarrassing.)

Now the front desk lady and the older salesman would call/text me every so often to check up on me. The older salesman was always nice to me. We talked about God and family. But one day he tells me to call him because he had something bothering him that he wanted to clear up. So I did. He goes on to tell me that he felt a tension between us on my last day, "not a sexual tension," but he felt as though if he were to have kissed me that day I wouldn't have stopped him. So many thoughts ran through my mind and I couldn't help but to laugh. Wasn't sure what he thought my reaction was going to be, but come on! That is a ridiculous notion to have. I told him there's no way of knowing what would have happened (I would have either stopped him and left, or stood there catatonically in shock), but I hope he has a good evening and I left it at that. He then proceeds to text me 2 days in a row to "check up on me." When I did not respond to either he finally got the hint; he had crossed a line.

Like I said earlier, he is around my mother's age. And what's even crazier, I've met his WIFE. She is caring and absolutely adores him. And he's met MY husband, which is an accomplishment in itself! How could he have gotten the impression that I would've been okay with that?! Thinking back to the times he was nice to me and gave me advice, all I can think was that he was acting that way for an ulterior motive. Not because he cared about my well-being, but because he thought about what he could benefit from acting in that manner.

I planned on telling no one about this except my husband, who is not happy with the situation, but the older salesman told the front desk lady that I wasn't talking to him anymore and wouldn't explain so she asked me. I have no reason not to tell her, especially since it is the thing that hinders me from visiting.

Now to leave you on a more positive and uplifting note -

Two: "Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got."

When I read this quote on my Big Sis' Facebook, I felt such a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders. This is how I want to live this new year. Other than my usual resolutions to read/write more, exercise and eat healthier so that I can be happy with my body, accepting an apology that I never received is monumental. Because I hold grudges and have a hard time letting go, being able to feel no hatred or disdain towards someone opens my life for so much positivity. And let's face it, we can always use more positivity in our lives.

Next time, I hope to have a more uplifting post. Those are usually no fun, but this is the new year and who knows what's to come!